Surrendering Your Fear

Surrender your fear. Something will come that is greater than what the fear is trying to protect. – Mooji  Initially, I was afraid of bipolar disorder primarily because I did not know what it was or what it entailed; it represented Uncertainty. The same was true of cerebellitis, another monumental Uncertainty. Uncertainty means not knowing.…

No Wonder God Was Not Answering My Calls

Prayer is not asking. It is a longing of the soul. It is daily admission of one’s weakness. It is better in prayer to have a heart without words than words without a heart. – Mahatma Gandhi  After the shock of bipolar disorder diagnosis slowly began to dissipate, it was followed four years later with…

Was Prayer The Answer?

Pray as though everything depended on God. Work as though everything depended on you. – St. Augustine  Bipolar disorder shook the foundations of my world. Cerebellitis turned my world upside down. After being diagnosed and treated for bipolar disorder, and understanding that most likely it would be a permanent part of my life, I religiously…

Help Was There, But I Could Not See It

Help me to journey beyond the familiar and into the unknown.    Give me the faith to leave old ways and break fresh ground with You. – St. Brendan  After being diagnosed with bipolar disorder, I spent the next four years trying, and struggling, to follow the advice of Dr. Kafissen: taking my medication every…