Trust me, you know when you’ve got depression. – Giles Andreae
Believe me, I do.
There was a time, however, when I did not know, but I will address that issue in my next and/or future blogs.
Trust me, you will want to “Stay tuned for more!”
Regina arrived early the next morning, eager to start the day.
Routinely, Regina shared hospital gossip with me and explained our activities for the day. Since my speech was improving, I tried to keep up my end of the conversation with a few short one‑liners.
That morning, however, was different. Clarence did not come for coffee, but I did not notice. I felt neither annoyance nor humiliation when I used the bedpan.
Regina said, “Let’s hurry. We’ll be late for physical therapy.”
“I’m not going,” I said, indifferently. “I’m too tired.”
“Really, we’ll be late,” she insisted.
“Cancel it,” I said.
“They’re going to be mad,” she said, emphatically.
“I don’t care. I’m not going,” I said, just as emphatically.
Regina was used to patients who followed orders. She excused herself and took a walk while I turned my head and stared out the window.
Several people came to visit, but I told Regina to send them away as I continued to stare out the window.
“I don’t know what’s wrong with me today,” I thought to myself.
Then, as I stared at a cloud passing by, I realized why today was different. An old friend had come to visit, despite my protests.
I almost laughed. Not even Regina could bar his entrance. As I sat there with him, I remembered how we met. – Excerpt from “I’m Afraid”
I offer these thoughts for your consideration.
Welcome to my World!
The saga continues in my next blog.
Do Not Be Afraid!!!