In A Moment Of Crisis, Laughter Takes The Stage!

If I had no sense of humor, I would long ago have committed suicide. –Mahatma Gandhi

 In a previous excerpt from my memoir, I spoke of a stranger who stole into my apartment and held me captive for three days, torturing me all the while.

The narrative continues:

For two days, I tried to figure a way out, an escape from this intruder who refused to release his crushing hold on me.

 When all else failed, I turned to God. I begged Him to help me, to do whatever He had to do to stop this unexplainable, unbearable pain: a heart attack; an exploding aneurysm; a huge truck crashing through my bedroom; anything quick and painless.

 When God did not seem to be listening, I became impatient and angry.

 “Why not end it myself,” I thought.

I suppose that all of the years of Catholic training and Jesuit theology that I had been subjected to were primarily responsible for dismissing the idea. But there was a practical, and terrifying, reason as well.

I was convinced that I would screw it up. I believed that if it was not my time to go, then no matter how foolproof the method might be, I would spend the next seventy years lying in a hospital bed hooked up to every life support system imaginable.

It seemed as if I had not smiled in months, but that thought made me laugh. And the harder I laughed, the better I felt. Certainly not good, but well enough to get out of bed the next day and keep going.

As for the stranger, he disappeared as suddenly and mysteriously as he came. From time to time, I felt him lurking in the shadows, but I did not come face to face with him again until a dozen years later. – Excerpt from “I’m Afraid”

 

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