Madness is to think of too many things in succession too fast, or of one thing too exclusively. – Voltaire
Before reading today’s blog, I recommend rereading last week’s blog in order to better appreciate where my saga is headed for now.
Blog #29 is easily found on my website and, once again, I would appreciate your thoughts & comments posted under Contact, or on Facebook if you prefer.
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In February, I had lunch with my best friend, Michael. He suggested that he and I and another close friend, Patrick, take a golfing vacation to Florida in March: warm, sunny weather, and golf, away from the cold and the snow. What could be better?
I did not want to go. Michael and I were close friends, and he suspected that there was something wrong with me despite my protests to the contrary. I gave him every excuse I could think of not to go, but his persistence won out.
I was depressed the day we left; I was depressed while we were there; I was depressed the day that we got home; and, knowing that I had patients scheduled for the next day, I was depressed when I went to bed.
I could not sleep, so I stared at the ceiling. At some point, strangely enough, I began to relax, and I noticed that the knots in my stomach were gone. The oppressive weight that had been smothering me for months was lifting from my chest.
I could breathe. I felt good. Actually, I felt great. I stayed up all night, thinking: about everything. I envisioned my life as a huge puzzle with hundreds of pieces scattered on a table in front of me. Gradually, and then rapidly, all of the pieces started to fit together. I understood what my life was all about. It was so simple, so obvious. Why had I never understood it before? All of the answers were right there in front of me.
Unfortunately, I soon forgot the answers, and most of the questions. But it did not matter. I already was thinking about something else. – Excerpt from “I’m Afraid”
I offer these thoughts for your consideration.
Welcome to my World!
The saga continues in my next blog.
Do Not Be Afraid!!!