The oldest and strongest emotion of mankind is fear. And the oldest and strongest kind of fear is fear of the unknown. – H.P. Lovecraft

 I used this quote once before, but I find it relevant for today’s blog as well.

 Fear and I have been intimate friends since childhood. He rarely misses an opportunity to frighten, upset intimidate, or torture me; it appears to be his vocation in life.

In December of 1988, hospitalized with a combination of viral and bacterial infections and a fever of 105 degrees, Fear was constantly by my side and extremely attentive.

Exhibiting a number of severe and unusual symptoms, my diagnosis was an unresolved mystery for which the doctors assigned to my case did everything in their power to unravel.

Doubt and Uncertainty, two of Fear’s favored offspring tried their best to dispirit me, but they were unsuccessful; my fear of the unknown, my greatest fear, superseded their efforts.

 

“We suspect that your immune system is behaving abnormally,” he said. “We would like your permission to test you for AIDS.”

 Since I could neither speak nor write coherently, I nodded my head to indicate my consent.

 I had tubes running into my arm, bladder, and nose; I was unable to speak; and I had no control over the movements of my body. I understood that something was seriously wrong with me, maybe as serious and deadly as AIDS.

I was afraid, but I was anxious to have the test. For me, not knowing what was wrong with me was much more frightening than knowing. – Excerpt from “I’m Afraid”

 

Communication, I believe, is the key to understanding one another.

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The saga continues in my next blog.

Do Not Be Afraid!!!