Surrender your fear. Something will come that is greater than what the fear is trying to protect. – Mooji
Initially, I was afraid of bipolar disorder primarily because I did not know what it was or what it entailed; it represented Uncertainty.
The same was true of cerebellitis, another monumental Uncertainty.
Uncertainty means not knowing. This is anathema to me.
Once I know what I am facing, I can and want to deal with it. But first I have to identify my opponent.
Fear has many faces and countless children. It is no easy task determining which of them I am combating at any one time or another.
Fear is truly Machiavellian.
I struggled mentally, physically, and emotionally to cooperate with my doctors and therapists in their efforts to help me overcome the disabling effects of manic depression and cerebellitis.
No one forced me to do it; I chose to do it. I hated being helpless; I hated not being in control of my life; I hated being dependent, especially on those closest to me; and, most of all, I was deathly afraid of placing my fate completely in the hands of someone else.
After years of struggling to overcome my disabilities, I now realize that hard work and cooperation are not enough. Patience and humility are not enough. Even trust is not enough. – Excerpt from “I’m Afraid”
Then, I asked myself, “What is enough?”
Could surrendering my fears be enough?
How do I surrender them, and to whom?
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The saga continues in my next blog.
Do Not Be Afraid!!!