Unforgiveness is like drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die. – Marianne Williamson
I have been there.
Even if I had heard these words at the time, they would have fallen on deaf ears.
I already was in the company of Anger, Ego, and Pride; there was no room for anyone else.
Because I stubbornly clung to my own will for fear of losing control of my destiny, God decided I needed another tool.
This time it was an image that evoked a dramatic, terrifying, emotional response in me that remains indelibly imprinted on my mind, my heart, and my soul.
I was sitting at my kitchen table, my favorite place to think, and I was staring into the backyard thinking about heaven, hell, and anger. A question entered my mind.
Does God cast souls into hell because they have committed too many sins and are not worthy of forgiveness, or because they are not truly sorry?
I did not accept the first premise, but I did understand the second. I have been in the abyss where white-hot anger turns ice-cold and unforgiving, and pride reigns supreme.
I asked myself another question.
What if God said to me, “I will forgive you, and you will be with me for all eternity, if you forgive all who have sinned against you”?
I knew what my answer could be.
“No. I cannot do that, not even for you.”
The gravity of such a response struck like a sledgehammer to my chest. – Excerpt from “I’m Afraid”
The inability to forgive is a true disability.
Forgiveness is a formidable cure.
It has taken many years, countless lessons, and the help of many to understand and embrace this truth.
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Communication, I believe, is the key to understanding one another.
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Do Not Be Afraid!!!